Fear

Let’s talk about the big F-word.

When I look back on my life of fifty-nine years,

it is the one thing that I have constantly wrestled with.

I know fear very well. It is not my friend. It never was.

Fear has not protected me from anything. It has prevented me from being free.

If you are afraid of lightning, it will still strike you anyway.

Fear changes nothing but you.

If you want to be cautious and avoid being struck during a storm that is different.

If you are scared of death…guess what?

You are still going to die.  We all are.  No point in being afraid of the inevitable.

I have fought fear a million times. I will never let it roll over me lying down.

This past week I have experienced one of the things I have feared most.

I watched my precious father die of cancer.

It will take time to process his passing. He was so loved. It was horribly painful for us.

I quietly waited beside his bed in the mornings.  My sister and mother stayed evenings.

My heart is broken. My soul is shaken. My family is no longer whole.

What good was all that fear?

Fear of his falling. Fear of his cancer. Fear of my failing to help him.

What a waste of energy!

Fear is a foe, not a friend.

Do not welcome it. Do not allow it to stay around.

It will steal your joy. It will hold you back.

Fear won’t change anything but you and your attitude.

Fight the fear.

It gets in the way.

Be free of fear.

Be fierce.

Love,

Flower