My Window to the Past

I have spent a lot of time looking through this “window.”

It is a magnifier that I use to read Rose’s medical records.

When I bend over to read through it,

it feels as though I am peeking through a window

into her past.

No videos, no photos, no sounds

Just words

The names of doctors and drugs, test results, descriptions of events…

I go through this tiny window back into hospitals

back to the fear

Trying to find the words to make sense of the suffering.

Searching for answers to share.

Desperately seeking the X on this map to find the terrible treasure,

so that it can be dug up and destroyed.

Looking back for the where and the why

and finding our stories to keep you company

while you wait

on the other side of this window.

SEIZUREMAMA

Author: Flower Roberts

I am a garden blogger and a mother. This blog is about my daughter Rose and her triumph over epilepsy. We are in the process of completing a book, Watching Rose Rise. We need folks who understand life with seizures to give us some feedback. Rose is off at college right now so I, Flower, am running the blog PLEASE come and join us. We want to get this right. View all posts by Flower Roberts