I woke up to the image of the octopus carrying two halves of a coconut shell. You may not know what this means, but I do.
It means giving up freedom for safety. That’s what I have done. That’s what I have modeled for Rose…until now.
Hitting rock-bottom is a great place to start transformation because only YOU can choose when and if to move. That’s how it starts Mama Bears. The fear has won and you are stuck down there on the bottom. You can stay down as long as you like.
Is this a future down here paralyzed with fear? You are not dead, but you might as well be. That is where I was late last summer, down and not getting up. Why should I? When I rose up from the ashes, I would be carrying the same fear and shoveling that same sand against the same tides. Lose:lose:lose…
Is safety the ultimate goal? Is life on the bottom worth living? What are those two halves of coconut shell REALLY doing for you? They are like two anchors weighing you down. You are carrying them around just in case you need them.
Do you REALLY want your child doing this? Remember, this is their childhood. You did not start lugging around fear until you became a parent. They do not realize this.
Is this REALLY safety or just the illusion of it. What are you REALLY prepared for with those coconut halves? Guilt avoidance? Shield from blame?
Stop with all that safety. Do what is necessary and drop the rest of that load of ‘Preparedness for all the What Ifs of the World.’ Will those two halves of coconut shell REALLY save you?
I dare you to drop them and run free. I dare you to let your child see you without that shell. I dare you to drop the damn fear.
I did and a miracle has finally happened. Rose dropped her fear, too. She is writing, she is reading, she is talking, she is calling friends. SHE IS BACK!
Mama Bear… drop the damn shell.
Walk free and see what will be.
Please.
Just Mama…No Seizure
Just Becca and Rose
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Seizure Mama and Rose 