When you get on an airplane.
The attendants tell you during the safety training
that if you are travelling with a child,
to put on your own oxygen-mask first.
It seems counter intuitive for any mother to take care of herself first.
But what good are you to your child, if you are unconscious?
Once you get on the sacrifice cycle with an ill child,
it’s hard to even consider your own needs
while struggling to take care of all of your child’s urgent demands.
While looking through old photos of myself, I saw a very unwell person.
The stress changed my face, my body, my personality and my spirit.
Over and over, I went without “oxygen.”
There was no time for me, no energy for me.
I would take care of myself when she was well.
Going without oxygen for twenty-four years took it’s toll.
I am still trying to get healthy.
It’s taken surgeries, drugs, therapy, a trainer, hobbies, books, religion, family and friends to bring me back this far.
It has been a long, hard fight to get back to me.
I know you are busy mama, but
PUT ON YOUR OWN OXYGEN-MASK once in a while.